Okay baby, let's do this thing! At 39 weeks pregnant I am ready for Labor, Motherhood and for my world to be Rocked by my new little man. I have my weekly OB appointments on Friday mornings and sadly these have been creating pretty crappy Fridays for me. I have been 1cm dilated for three weeks now and am having a love hate relationship with my cervix. I am feeling the pressure to go into labor not only from the cramping and contractions that I am experiencing but from some of those around me. I know that I must not let the expectations of others effect me but this is really hard when I want the same thing that they do, for the baby to be here!
I am a bit of a worrier and maybe even could be classified as a control freak. I must say that this experience has been nerve racking and humbling at the same time. There is so much going on in there and thankfully the pregnancy has been pretty smooth. I have been lucky to have an amazing support system; my husband who tells me daily how beautiful and great I look despite the extra pounds I'm packing, my family and friends who calm my worries and give sweet words of encouragement, and my fabulous doctor whose knowledge and confidence empowers me!
This experience has taught me that although I can control what goes into my body, the amount of activity and rest I get, and how I decorate and organize the baby nursery; I cannot control the time of arrival of my sweet baby boy. My excitement and love for this baby is CRAZY! So this week as I continue sitting, waiting and wishing I decide to enjoy my last few moments on my own, with my husband and relax by thinking positive thoughts and practicing patience!
